I came across this letter several months ago. I have read it again and again. This letter is the new measure by which I hope to forgive.
"I don't want to walk around filled with resentment and negativity. I don't want to think about and feel the ugly things. I want to remember and cultivate the beautiful things. My life has been so full of beauty and beautiful people. Finally my self-pity gives rise to true hummility and I can drop my defenses and with them my fears, and I can know then that I am worthy of the precious and abundant love with which my life has been so blessedly filled.
Thus filled with compassion for myself I am capable of knowing love for others. I want to be open to you like a river to the rain; to swell as our forms merge, to flow in unity, and to be yet two distinct and essentail parts of an endless cycle. Once the rain drops have mixed with the body of water, they can never exactly be evaporated back out. I love you as part of myself and I love you also as your own person.
I want to forgive you for any suffering I have experienced in our union and you make it easy with your strong, sure expression of love. I want to stop hurting myself and to stop hurting you. I want to invite healing and to embrace positivity through hummility, compassion and strength. In this moment I feel capable of it because I cn see how preparing oneself to say goodbye to everything is exactly the same as embracing life.
I don't know what you feel you need to go through with me to restore our friendship. I have felt heavy with the burden of figuring this out, but it is not my burden. Only you can knwo what you need. I want you to know that I am open to it. If theree are things that have passed between us that you need to go back and examine together, I will go back there with you. As I write these words I feel myself closing in fear, but I will challenge myself to be stronger this time, and more honest for the sake of love...there is nothing else.
If we must say goodbye, I want to know it and feel it, and fo it with grace and intention."
Anonymous
"I don't want to walk around filled with resentment and negativity. I don't want to think about and feel the ugly things. I want to remember and cultivate the beautiful things. My life has been so full of beauty and beautiful people. Finally my self-pity gives rise to true hummility and I can drop my defenses and with them my fears, and I can know then that I am worthy of the precious and abundant love with which my life has been so blessedly filled.
Thus filled with compassion for myself I am capable of knowing love for others. I want to be open to you like a river to the rain; to swell as our forms merge, to flow in unity, and to be yet two distinct and essentail parts of an endless cycle. Once the rain drops have mixed with the body of water, they can never exactly be evaporated back out. I love you as part of myself and I love you also as your own person.
I want to forgive you for any suffering I have experienced in our union and you make it easy with your strong, sure expression of love. I want to stop hurting myself and to stop hurting you. I want to invite healing and to embrace positivity through hummility, compassion and strength. In this moment I feel capable of it because I cn see how preparing oneself to say goodbye to everything is exactly the same as embracing life.
I don't know what you feel you need to go through with me to restore our friendship. I have felt heavy with the burden of figuring this out, but it is not my burden. Only you can knwo what you need. I want you to know that I am open to it. If theree are things that have passed between us that you need to go back and examine together, I will go back there with you. As I write these words I feel myself closing in fear, but I will challenge myself to be stronger this time, and more honest for the sake of love...there is nothing else.
If we must say goodbye, I want to know it and feel it, and fo it with grace and intention."
Anonymous